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Who knows what the fuck's wrong with me.
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Your personality type is SLOEI
You are social, moody, organized, egocentric, and intellectual, and may prefer a city which matches those traits.

The largest representation of your personality type can be found in the these U.S. cities: Washington DC, Greenville/Spartanburg, Boston Area, Nashville, Indianapolis, Miami/Ft. Lauderdale, Pittsburgh, Tampa/St. Petersburg, Memphis, W. Palm Beach and these international countries/regions Ukraine, Middle East, Israel, Slovenia, Croatia, Switzerland, Romania, Belgium, Denmark, Hungary, South Africa, Poland, South Korea, Guam, Hong Kong

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I am interested in people's individual definitions, positions, interpretations, religious or lay, and even your best guesses on what you believe agnositicism is...


  • what is it to be agnositc?

  • who were the agnositics, historically?

  • what is the current trend of agnositicism?

  • what are your personal stygmas regarding the agnostic mind frame?



To start this off I'll give the base line definitions, the literal etymology, thus the literal definition, and the definitions presented by dictionary.com )

If you happen to be agnostic or know of agnosticism because you are of a gnostic faith, I would be very interested in hearing your thoughts on this matter, from all angles and in all aspects of either history or current society. I am doing this research to support a piece of writing I am trying develop. To broaden my search, I would also very much like to hear from those of you who don't necessarily have concrete evidence or learning on agnosticism. As a large part of the agnositc role in today, in current times, agnosticism harbors a great deal of young people who feel no affinity to religions as an organization or movement, but can't quite escape the notion of a higher spirituality and connectedness. As I am trying to develop character or ficticious perspective, I would like to base these things on reality but one broaden than my own naturally.

So in short, I am looking for the comments from one or all of the following perspectives;


  1. Religious interpretations of the historical movement and/or sect of agnostics.

  2. Differing published definitions (i.e. one(s) that differs from the definition stated above, even a different wording is acceptable.)

  3. Outside opinions of agnostics and agnosticism. (i.e. someone who has a good idea of what it is, or feel they have a good intellectual understand of, but aren't necessarily spiritual either way.)

  4. Interpretations from actual agnostics. (practicing persons or persons otherwise associated.)



Or, if you feel you don't fall into any of the previous four, or if it's simply just easier for you;


  1. Whatever the word agnostic brings to mind. (i.e. an immediate response to the word, without interpretation.)

  2. Your own personal perspective on agnosticism (i.e. an immediate response, followed by your own interpretation.)



One last thing... if you could preface your response, whatever it may be (a word, a sentence, a paragraph, an exerp,) with a particular perspective you are writing from. (If it's one I've over looked, please, by all means include a different or expaned perspective.)

Take as long as you need, even if it's a month before you get back to me. I'll be posting a link to this little project on my info page.

Thank you and have a blessed day.

Current Mood: curious curious
Current Music: Rascal Flats - "Fast Cars & Freedom"

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So at like 1:30, ADS calls me and asks me to come into work because they got slammed with some gigantic project... and could I do some transcription for them. Um... sure. So I went in at 3pm and stayed until 7pm. I have to go to bed in an hour to be back at work by 9am.

that's my update.

Current Mood: content content
Current Music: Josh Gracin - Brass Bed

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SCORPIO - Tuesday, August 09, 2005
Your two key planets, Mars and Pluto, are struggling with each other today, and your emotional life reflects this difficult aspect. Perhaps you've worked hard toward achieving something and now are afraid of losing what you've earned. Your irritability can instigate a blowout between you and a loved one. If you can remain conscious of your anger before you try to hide it, stressful conflict can be avoided.

Good to know... cuz he's not writing me back.

but that's not important right now....

I GOT A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ooooojjyeaah! *does cabbage patch*
I'll be proof-reading transcription (on a probationary period) for a company in Laurel. I'll have every opportunity to work as a transcriptionist for them once I establish myself... i'm not being paid shheee-it but fuck it... it's a job and they will increase my pay after a month and half and it's not a fucking temp agency.

I'd like to thank Jesus, sweet Jesus, for leading me astray in Arlington, VA last week. That was a truely a test of my sanity, wasn't it?

Life is good.
Finally.
Thank you.
drive thru.
(and bite me. hard... cuz I like it.)

Current Mood: energetic energetic
Current Music: Keith Urban - You'll Think of Me

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"Liz is famous for castigating herself in times of uncertainty."

WOTD )
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SCORPIO - Sunday, August 07, 2005
You have an uneasy feeling about something you don't want to share. An inner voice, however, encourages you to talk about it, but you know that will just make it worse. The good news is that you Scorpios know that making things worse can transform them and then make them better. Don't avoid the truth just because you are afraid of where it might lead.

Ok.
So is good news?
or bad news?
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SCORPIO - Saturday, July 30, 2005
It's difficult for you to get depressed about much of anything today, even if you are dealing with serious feelings. Your optimism is growing. Use the day to visualize in large strokes what you want to do. Let the little things fall to the side and strap the wide-angle lens onto the camera of your mind.

I'm going to my Dad's today so he talk me into taking the accounting position offered to me on Thursday. I really don't like accounting but I have a feeling I should accept it anyway. (It's work....) My horoscope pretty much nailed it shut. I know what the position would entail, they will train me, and phone time would be on my terms, and if it still bothers me, I can always you email to communicate misapplied payment questions. It's $12/hr so that's pretty solid.... it is however in Arlington which will be a total pain commuting. But again... there isn't shit in maryland so I'll probably end up taking it. *sigh*

Literary WOTD )

p.s. [info]dogsbestfriend
Kate - I got your VM, sorry to hear your sick. I did come online a little while after that but you had already signed off. Sorry I missed you. Thank you for your message and I hope you're feeling better soon!!

Current Mood: chipper chipper

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071305 229am


feel her soft storm shuddering warm
secret rain pelting a thousands spirits
lightly, to sleep blooms effortlessly
serenaded by breath’s deep lullaby.
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LET THERE BE EMPLOYMENT!

Ok, God didn't say that and it's not the 5th day either... more like 64th day... and I don't actually have a job yet either... but I hooked up with a promising agency so it's a start... and a better one at that. In the last two months I've had two interviews and one other run-in with a temp agency, all of which have proved unsuccessful. So I've given up on working in Maryland and will be braving everyone's favorite circum-navigational highway and working in Northern Virginia again. I'm not too excited about that but VA is offering 5x more jobs in clerical field than Maryland is... I refuse to be a receptionist or secretary and I sure as hell ain't working no call-center again.

.... aaand that's my update.

Current Mood: okay okay

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Laughable, but my muse is my fridge. I need new words though... (I need a lot of things.)

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062105 820pm

Come Summer, leave Winter be
this life long evening Falling
after me, cursedly relentlessly
His strange warm hours shadow
like steel green dreams,
She whispers desperately cold, breath
deeply, sleeps
through Spring.

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071305 229am

feel her soft storm shuddering warm
secret rain pelting a thousands spirits
light, to sleep blooms effortlessly
serenaded by breath's deep lullabye.

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More word magic to come... hopefully.

In other news, no job yet. So happy, Daddy rich a love me long time.
(wait... forget that last part.)
Sorry, I just finished reading James Clavell's Shogun so I'm trapped inside the Orient for the time being. In contrast, I've reinvested in The Machine Crusade so hopefully I will be back to normal soon, wakirmasu?

I'm in trouble too... I've almost caught up with myself. There are only 3 or 4 books in my possession I've yet to read. Thats out of those books I actually have an intention to read or are assorted reference books etc etc... you get the idea. At one point I had stock piled over 20 books at one time and I've managed to get through them ALL in the last 6 months. (In restrospect, that doesn't sound like much... but for me it is. I know some folks who could best that score in one week... but a pox on them!) So if anyone wants to buy some books for me that would be keen... I'm not holding my breath however :)

At least I'm in a good mood right?
*waves* at Kate. (Sorry, I was out of town when you called last... since getting home, I've been hiding.)

Current Mood: bored bored

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edit: August 5th, 2005 2:01am )
A cute guy asked me out and I said no.
*bangs head on table*

Do you know how LONG it's been since I've been with a man?
Never mind. That's not important.
I need better anxiety drugs.
Too bad I no longer have health insurance.

Seriously though. It's better this way.
Who knows what kind of damage I could do to a male human being...
I used to eat men for breakfast... man are they tastey.
All kidding aside, I'm more afraid of kind of monster I will turn into if I engage or even attempt to engage in a relationship. Just talking to my ex a few weeks ago made me insane. Well, that's not saying much. He always made me insane (so h0t!)

But yeah... I'm not ready yet.
He's pretty cute though... but no, if I can't even maintain female friendships (sorry, kate) than I'm really not ready to date anyone... even just friendly, no pressure dating... who am I kidding, it's all enormous pressure to me. (When did this happen? I used to be a pro at this. I was looked up to by my younger friends... apparently I had this innate power of attracting [assholes] dates and sex and all that fun stuff... I was drowning in the stuff.)

All in good time, right?
right.
When is good time again?
*cringe*

Current Mood: annoyed annoyed

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I watched the end of U.S. Open today and I loved it.
That's right... I watched chunks of a four day golf tornement and it was exciting.
My world has really slowed down...
I might even take up golfing... in the fall at least... no summer time action for me.

thank you, come again.

Current Mood: amused amused

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I hope I won't be disappointed come Wednesay.
My 2nd interview at Banker's Life & Casulty is tomorrow at noon. I have another interview with Graham Staffing on Tuesday at 9:30.
I got 22 hrs of admin. from USP... that was a pleasant $300 surpirse.
Dad gave me $50 in cash yesturday and another $100 today. Happy Father's Day indeed. (He was happy too.)

"Into The West" is a fucking great show. I shall be returning to the world of TV next saturday (i.e. my dad's house,) to watch the new episode. I gave my Dad my PS1 Final Fantasy games to try out since he's a big gamer at heart. They recently bought a PS2 for P's kids and I figured Dad could use a dose of FF for old times sake. I'm hoping he will loan me his copy of Diablo for the PC but I didn't ask... dinner and a $100 cheque were enough for one evening.

Time to retire to the budoir to finish Highland Knight *swoons*

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You Are Absinthe!
You have a unique personality. Although most like you, sometimes you take some getting used to. You can be a bit strong. You are full of energy and sometimes flamboyant. You are the life of the party but if people are not careful you can knock them on their ass.

What Naughty My Little Pony Are You?

iunno...
the picture doesn't seem to match the discription.
i think it nailed me...
but whats up with those wings? shouldn't they be at least hiding machetes or something?
(that would be rad.)

Current Mood: confused confused

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SCOPRIO - Thursday, June 16, 2005
You are receiving glimpses of future possibilities, and it may not be quite what you were expecting. Don't worry; these inflated fantasies are not necessarily your fate. Instead, they are a way of rebelling against the status quo. With the volume of original thoughts sparking through your brain today, there may be one or two worth pursuing. If you are attracted to an idea, write it down so it doesn't get lost in all the noise.

That settles it then.
Financial Services, here I come.

(I went to a career breifing today with Banker's Life & Casulty Co... needless to say I'm very interested in being an agent. I'll have a much better scope of the opportunity at the follow-up breifing on Monday.)

Here goes....

absolutely nothing.

Current Mood: cynical cynical

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SCOPRIO - Tuesday, May 31, 2005
Today may present you the chance to think about some of your favorite things, including the unknowable mysteries of life. But this isn't just a mental exercise now, for the real question is how can you apply this perspective to your life? Don't wear yourself out trying to find the ultimate answer. Instead, be open to little flashes of awareness along the way.

ok good.
cuz today i'm making myself actually PREPARE for any upcoming interviews I may stumble upon.
I'm answering the 50 common interview questions with written paragraphs so I may actually have a chance of presenting an answer when asked "So tell me about your self" or "What is your ideal job" or the dreaded...

"So, why did you leave your last job?"

Seriously, I am the WORST corporate interview ever. A question is asked and I just stare blankly at them because I really don't know what to say when they ask me about my career goals. Career goals? How bout a paycheck first!

Current Mood: determined determined

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Its 12:06pm on a Wednesday and I'm at home listening to dj LunaC - Live @ Back to the Future (NE).

Why?
Because I got fired today.

*sigh*
I really didn't want to work there anymore anyway.
No I no longer have insurance.
No I never started my 401K.
No I not looking forward to finding another job.
and No... I'm not going to go burn down his (my boss) house even though he really deserves it for firing ME for being 5 minutes late a few times, rather than firing ghetto-ass-white-bitch who is #1 a convicted felon, #2 consistantly disruptive to the entire department, #3 a total negative-nancy, #4 she tried to FIGHT me in the office and would have succeeded had Vicki not been standing between us.

grr...

time to go spruce up the old resume.
toodles.

Current Mood: cranky cranky

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Your Birthdate: November 2

Your birth on the 2nd day of the month adds a degree of emotion, sensitivity, and intuition to your life.

The 2 is a very social number allowing you to make friends easily and quickly.

Yet you are apt to have a rather nervous air in the company of a large group.



You have a warmhearted nature and emotional understanding that constantly seeks affection.

You are more prone than most to become depressed and moody, as emotions can turn inward and cause anxiety and mental turmoil.

It can be hard for you to bounce back to reality when depression sets in.


Current Mood: moody moody

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SCORPIO - Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Your fiscal life may finally be on track. You have been putting in your time and the rewards are coming, but it's just not enough. You want more. You are getting a deep sense of value from what you do outside the home, and now this may be creating conflict. Look at the tension you've set up between your home and your role in the outer world. Do whatever you can now to dissipate the stress.

I am a firm believer in substitution when it comes to horoscopes. Most of them can be fairly on the mark if you use a little discretional flexability. The main focus in this instance is my "fiscal life" and while the part about it just not being enough is right on the nose, sadly my fiscal affairs are anything but on-track. Money being one of my two main life-concerns in this chapter of my existance, for once it is the other concern that is finally on track and showing improvement. That being, my ability to get to work on time, consistantly. For the last two or three weeks I have been getting to work between 820 and 845am... a great improvement from my leisurely routine of 900 to 945am. However, there in lies the consequence. I'm losing sleep. I'm more tired than usual when I get home in the evening. Litterally having to force 105% of my hard earmed attention span just towards getting to work between those two specific points of time is draining all my reserves that would normally be used for... cleaning, taking out the trash, scooping the cats' boxes, eating DINNER. So yeah, if it were my choice, I would not be subjecting myself to this kind of invisible trauma.... but that is just simply the fate of the boarderline mentally hindered professional, and it seems there is little I can do in terms of making my ass-hole, dick head, redheaded bastered, comb-over sporting, pudgey fingered, manipulative sociopathic boss understand that not everyone is like him.

Current Mood: accomplished accomplished

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SCORPIO - Wednesday, April 20, 2005
Your special inter-dimensional radio is picking up community service messages that no one else can hear, for they are meant for you alone. It's like you are getting advice from angels, spirit guides or aliens. Or, perhaps you are just channeling your next door neighbor. The source doesn't really matter. Pay attention to what you are hearing.

Thats not good news... especially since last night I drew a reversed 5 of Cups in the 10th and final card of the Celtic Draw spread... the 10th card is "The Final Answer" card.... the reversed 5 of Cups is NOT a good 10th card *frowns* ("Am I doomed if I stay here?") <--- stay at my job.

Well... time to go to some worthless training session until 11am.


p.s. I got about 3 hrs of sleep last night.

Current Mood: exhausted exhausted

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SCORPIO - Saturday, April 09, 2005
You have tired of your ongoing routines and now seek the simplicity of retreat. This isn't, however, about going backwards; it's about moving into a less complicated future. Today, it's "back to basics" for you Scorpions. Forget about continuity. Try new ways to finish your chores faster so you'll have down time to relax.

I have to go pay my rent.

Current Mood: awake awake

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SCORPIO - Wednesday, March 23, 2005
Issues with your family may bring up old wounds. Even if you think that it's better to leave past issues buried, they still might be causing problems for you. No matter how unpleasant it may be, one more exploration into your own past can help you gain new perspectives on your present life. Don't just flounder around; a methodical approach will assure success.

I had this fucking nightmare, all night... early evening I was an arsonists evading the police, who were coicidentally my family... around 5am I was a Mob Boss's wife; we had just killed several people and were thus evading the police (not my family this time,) but we were at a shopping mall, running around the perimeter of the building; parking lots, garages, alleyways, loading docks and dumpsters, and it was raining. After the cats woke me up and I fed them, around 6:45am, I went back to sleep and was then greeted by the same shopping mall, but it was now on fire and my family members were trapped in various parts of the blaze and I had to find out who was where, all the while avoiding the fire, which I had caused somehow... in the dream, I knew my former character (the mobsters wife,) was responsible and I was pissed because I let myself do whatever it was I was doing with the Mob.

I've been having these multiphasal dreams for like the last month or so... usually occurring in either two or three parts and I always wake up disturbed and haunted. Last week it was pregnancy/childbirth and then sexual assault... both parts of the whole dreaming-phase were interconnected in interesting ways. In the 2nd half of the dreaming, I actually felt a strong degree of regret and loss for the 1st character who'd just been experiencing preganacy and childbirth (nothing physical that I recall... just the wikked, hormonal emotions I only imagine are associated with child bearing.) I remembered the 1st experience and compared it to the sexual assualt (again, nothing physical that I recall, just the emotions associated with something like that...) in it's aftermath.

I've always had dreams like that... just never in such close proximity to one another. I'll have a very vivid and striking dream (not necessarily negative, just memorable for whatever reason,) and then months and months later I'll be having another, equally vivid dream that at the time of occurrance no resemblence to the previous dream, but for one aspect; one person, place, or thing and I'll having fucking DREAM de-ja'vu!!!

I hadn't thought about the family being a promonant aspect in this mornings dreams, but perhaps I should consider that angle now. (p.s. Tarot.com has had weak ass horoscopes for EVER... finally I got a good one.)

Current Mood: weird weird

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358am 3192005

Another winter falls away from pale ankles unkempt
Another spring descends upon shoulders atrophied and bent
Another year sent tumbling down the hill
Another, trial, another jump-start, another day left empty and still.
Another sun dawns on an unchanged time
an unchanged heart
an unchanged mind
still breaths still.
Another eye blinks batting lashes
longing to fill this spot, another spot
left empty, like that day just dawned
seasons springing uphill trials tumbling towards winter.
Another
pale,
unkempt,
winter.
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DOES ANYONE WANT ANY CICHLIDS?



I have like... 50 juvenile and adults that are ready for transport... DC/MD/noVA only.

Let me know.
I've spoken to one retailer and she only wants 10... I have about 50 fry as well so I need to get rid of more juvies...

take my fish... please.

Current Mood: eager

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for whatever reason, i'm learning to speak Romanian.

Multumecs. (Thank you.)
(i can't find the language table that would provide the accent on the t... so I'll pronounce it phonetically for you. mool-tsoo-MESK; the capital letters are the syllable pronounced louder than the previous two.)

I'm captivated by this language... even more so than Portuguese, and I didn't think that would be possible. This language is an incredible Germanic melding of Greek and Italian, that is so much lighter and fluid than most people would think.

and for my next trick... Gaelic.
(i'm still working on that one though. the thought of having to read Yaetes isn't too appealing.)

Current Mood: calm calm

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Carnivale last night...
was fucking amazing.
so not spoiling anything...
who didn't call S ending up with BJ? ok, that wasn't that hard to figure out...
but I still think S and BH are siblings. how can they not be?
only 3 more episodes left? are they trying to kill me? I can't wait.
(what's up with time-slot change? don't those ppl know we have jobs? DW can't be that good of a show.)

Current Mood: enthralled enthralled
Current Music: Sublime "Date Rape"

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yeah. i'm so not going to work tomorrow.
(i just talked to my supervisor & co-worker.)

Current Mood: relieved relieved

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I am a d6


Take the quiz at dicepool.com



still sick that is. *cough*
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SCORPIO - Monday, March 07, 2005
You might find yourself in a situation where you have bitten off more than you can chew -- and now reality is demanding that you meet your responsibilities. The frustrating thing is that you can't do everything. Luckily, you can slide through this phase by relying on your imagination to ease the tension. Allowing yourself to dream won't get the work done, but it will help you feel better about yourself along the way.


So should I, or should I not, go to work tomorrow even though I'm still digustingly ill?

I know I should probably go b'c there is a lot of work to be done, especially since I left work at 11:00am on Friday (03/04). I do NOT want to go because I know I am still sick enough to make OTHER'S sick... which is exactly how I got sick in the first place. And for some background, I'm the biggest sick-nazi at work. I get really pissed off when ppl come into work, hauching and hatching their phlegm (oh and by the by, today's WOTD is one that appeared on a Trivial Persuit (Genus Edition... not to be confused with Genius edition... geniuses...) and we could not figure out what the eff it meant.) all over the g.d. office, getting everyone else sick. So of course, as Mr. Murphey would have it; I got sick. So therein lies my quandry... Do I go to work, breathing my contaminated air, something I get all up in arms about other people doing, regardless of the alternative consequences... of which run along the lines of serious backlogg, unanswered emails, undue strain on my co-worker, and lets not forget running out of LEAVE! all of which I am facing right now.

No. I don't want to go to work. And no, I don't want to make this decision... (even though I will, I'm not THAT crazy or irresponsible to put all my eggs in the horoscope basket, hoping to have my decision made for me... I'm simply an extrovert and must verbalize all thoughts and ideas to get them straight.)

So now that I've finally meandered over to my POINT: what is the above horoscope saying anyway? Suck it up? Or take advantage of the situation for some well deserved r&r, even if that means the work isn't going to get done?

stupid cryptic messages...

*cough*hack*sneeze... sneeze.sneeze*SNEEZE....cough*ugh* (spit)

Current Mood: sick sick

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